My first cyber pondering..

This is my first real official Blog posting. I have done many over and over, and really more for my personal benefit than to share with the world. I am a complete extrovert when it comes to people and living. I have really lost my identity however. No not like the mastercard commercials, but lost my identity in a fast world. There are things as a child I used to think why would people do that and now find myself knees deep in it. I think that if I can sit here sip on my water and wait for the passing of the seconds as I write these lines. Empty, thats how i feel, shallow... ready to cave in. I once did that you know, try to kill myself. I hear people say thats insane why would you do that you have so much going on.. it made sense then... difference today is I want to live.